A Pinoy Biker’s Philippine Rural Adventures

Lately, I have noticed that I have become more serious in considering my life choices. Oh I am not as young as perhaps more than half of you bloggers out there and this made me think. If I, in my current age will not learn to cope, then, hope lies somewhere else. I have made choices that certainly were more out of curiosity than real passion. I have made choices borne out of misdirected passion rather than real conviction. And I have made choices that led to further moral degradation that would certainly shame my virtuous mother had she been alive today and came to know about them. I have been through several crossroads in my life and then some elliptical roads, and then more circumferential roads. But I always ended up still pondering what’s next after the last turn. How hopeless could that be?

It has been said that life begins at forty. I began mine six years ago. Those forty years that preceded the start of my life should have been enough to take me where destiny should lead me. But no, no, no. I’m still stuck where I was six years past. Still like a toddler making tentative steps. Out of fear you say? Oh come on, you couldn’t scare me a bit even if you were the Blair witch yourself. Choices. Options. These do scare me. Seriously.

Have you ever tried installing a new hardware/software in your windows pc? If yes, you would be familiar with the found new hardware wizard that comes up. And if the software/hardware you are installing is unknown to the gods up there in Mt. Microsoft, you will get a message that says “The software you are installing has not passed the windows logo test…” or something like “The software you are about to install does not contain a Microsoft digital signature. Therefore, there is no guarantee that this software works correctly with Windows or it could damage your system” or something of the sort. And then come the choices. Or options. Either you click “cancel” or “continue anyway”. What am I to do? If I cancel, then nothing happens and I won’t be able to use the software/hardware I am trying to install. If I click on the other, I may end up losing my pc altogether! Choices! Options!

I’ve always been a fan of comedy movies, but then again, lately no comedy flick has made me even simulate a smile. Now this is serious. Now this is really making me so frustrated. Do I laugh or not? But what more could go wrong in a life that not even any Scary Movie can lighten up? Don’t bother asking if I have seen Date Movie. I did and now I am more depressed, thinking why did I not laugh when that kitty was in the toilet doing its thing? I used to love toilet humor. I know, I am totally losing it. Show me something where I don’t need to choose among options. Less options, less mistake.

A friend of mine once told me, when I was in one of my crossroads and feeling the pressure of choosing which path to take, that I should know and understand not only what I am leaving behind but also what I am getting into. That way, I will have less regrets in life later on. Happily I should say, this has happened in my present life.